Food For Thought

Since it's reading week I've been doing some reading about education for a presentation coming up. Lately I've been really into C.S. Lewis and he had some nice quotes that did and didn't go along with my project. Now he is a cool cat, and I love the way he speaks. Did you know he is the most frequently quoted person in conference that's not a general authority? Here are some favorites I've read this past week. They're mostly just applicable to my life right now but I hope you like them.

"Can a mortal ask questions which God finds unanswerable? Quite easily, I should think. All nonsense questions are unanswerable."

"Education without values, as useful as it is, seems rather to make man a more clever devil."

"Even in literature and art, no man who bothers about originality will ever be original: whereas if you simply try to tell the truth (without caring twopence how often it has been told before) you will, nine times out of ten, become original without ever having noticed it."

There are two kinds of people: those who say to God, "Thy will be done," and those to whom God says, "All right, then, have it your way."

And the one I'm using as my presentation theme:

"The task of the modern educator is not to cut down jungles, but to irrigate deserts."

Oh, and P.S. I love Victoria. :)

Hot Gossip

The rumors are true. I do have a new boyfriend. His name is Bruce and I love him and there is nothing you guys can do to stop this. I think I'm in it for the long haul this time. How can I not give it my all with this one? He's always going with me to the beach and taking romantic pictures at sunset... What girl doesn't want that?

Sometimes he even lets me bring my friends along!

You can judge him all you want because he doesn't have a body... But he understands me, ok? Though I'm starting to think something may be going on with him and Scott...

Raw passion.

Oh, and P.S. be sure to click on these to see the larger image and make sure you notice in the first one scott licking his beard hair. hahaha. It's ok if these pictures make you uncomfortable... I'm a little grossed out myself. I just had to share though.

Love: the emotion of strong affection and personal attachment.

Happy V-Day everybody; I love ya. Today I've been thinking about love. Remember the first time you said I love you or had it said to you? Mine was in a car in grade 11. I was just a child. The boy turned to me and said "Kelsey, I love you." He gazed into my eyes waiting for me to equally declare my love and in return all I said back was:

"Thanks."

Let me just say, I am terrified of that sentence. I used to whine that I had a curse on me because every time I dated someone they'd throw that three-word phrase my way when I least expected it and we'd then either: a) break up, 2) kiss awkwardly because I wouldn't say anything back and thought maybe if I kissed him he wouldn't notice I hadn't said it yet, or f) sit in silence while I did everything in my power not to make eye contact with him. I'm afraid of admitting love but at the same time I just can't seem to get enough of the idea of love and knowing that there's someone out there who is in love or potentially in love with me; Hence why I just keep on dating. Everything is usually great with a guy but as soon as I see looooove form on those lips I run for the hills. Can't we all just like each other?  I don't want to sound heartless, there has been an exception here and there, I'm just a little scared of it. One time though, I did actually want to hear it. It was with this boy that I dated for a really long time, almost 2 years in fact. He was the best boyfriend a girl could have. He sang me songs on his guitar, he brought me flowers all the time, he called me in the morning so that "you're beautiful" would be the first thing I heard that day. He never gave up on the surprises and gifts and little showings of affection. He was different than the rest, and mostly because he did that without ever saying he loved me for 7 months. I think he thought it was obvious he did but I started to doubt. The sentence I hated the most was all I wanted to hear and all I could think was: I have been with this kid seven months  and he can't just spit it out? Does he even like me? Was he doing this whole thing just because he was a nice guy? Let me just say the lack of "I love you" was starting to get to my head. Finally I made my serious face, looked him straight in the eyes, and said: "You love me, right?" He looked at me like I just asked him if the sky was blue and simply replied: "Well of course. Why the heck do you think I do all of this stuff for you?"

That day I realized that when you love someone, you do things for them. When you love someone, you just kind of know that you love them and they should know in return (though it is nice to hear every once and a while). And when you really love someone, there shouldn't be a fear of loving them. All the other past boys were just throwing that sentence out because they thought thats all they needed and that I would be a typical girl and ecstatic. Wrong. They didn't make an effort to sing me a song or write me a letter, they thought I love you was good enough. But the thing is, it's just a sentence unless it's followed by some action. I don't want to sound cheesy, though it does go with this holiday, but can we all just show the people we love how much we love them today? Because I think that is a whole lot better than a measly few words.

Oh, and P.S. here's a song for all you lovers, and here's a song for all you depressed non-lovers.

Weekly News

This blog's basic purpose is just for my mom to know what I've been up to. Here's some recent happenings:

 1. I have missed these girls a lot lately.

Notice the Christian Bale background.

2. Megan came to visit. It was super fun and I didn't sleep the whole weekend... The Sunday she was here I took my first stab at making a roast beef dinner. I think it worked out ok and to end it off Ryan made the most delicious (derrrricious!) brownies of my entire life.

Meg was also able to see why I love that guy so much. Just look at that cute face haha.

3. It's my belief Scott has started reverse aging... Does he not look younger?

 4. I love my institute class and I love that we have a blog. :) These are the mug shots we all got taken this week. We're also making billboards to put around the school to intrigue non-members. I love my school!

5. I went on the biggest gong show date of my life last night with Matt, Kenidy, Scott, Jesse, and Jordan. First of all we wanted to go to Laserquest but it was busy and ended up at the most ghetto 5 pin bowling I have ever seen. The pins were attached to strings and man operated; I'm already planning on going back dressed white trash style. Then Matt decided we should go to Vietnamese food. Just a fact about me, I usually can't even move after I eat Vietnamese food because I'm so sick... Yep. Then I got locked out of my house and couldn't even get into my dress for the dance and ended up going casual. Gong show? Completely. But I ended up loving it. We took pictures when we got home to make up for it all...

 

 

I love these girls!

And that's all folks (mom).

Oh and P.S. I am so excited for this. 

Opposites

Right now I am two people. I am the girl from six months ago and I'm the girl six months from now. I'm dwelling and I'm looking forward. Everything I feel is on the extreme end of the scale. I'm lonely but at the same time I can't get anyone to leave me alone. I feel like I have a purpose but I have no idea where I'm heading. I have a rope on each arm and I'm getting split in half. I am two different girls in two different times with two different attitudes trying to fit in myself right now. Which one is going to win this fight? Which one is light and which one is dark?

Because we all know both cannot dwell in the same place.

Oh, and P.S. I swore to myself I would never write something like this, but just go with it ok?

My sister is beautiful, eh?