I'm a Blogger!

So my blogging life has begun... Let me take one deep breath before I begin. There. That was refreshing! So for some reason I've gotten the impression quite consistently lately to start a blog, which is kind of odd because I've always thought it was a lame excuse for people to talk about themselves but I kinda want to go from a different angle I guess with this. I won't be just talking about odd things that happen, my classes, friends, parties, etc... I want to just discuss topics. Whether they be spiritual, educational, political (though I'm sure that won't be a very consistent one) and hopefully by the time I'm done with school and it's "adventures" I can look back and see that I've changed. I've grown up and made something of myself. I don't mean "glamorous celebrity" making of myself, but I want to be satisfied if not overjoyed with the girl I am hopefully to be. So that was just kind of an introduction and I want to talk about what I experienced today.

So today I went to my YSA ward for the second time but it felt more like I'd never been there before. New building, way more single adults, and I felt even more lost than before. First of all the meeting was in an institute building which I guess doesn't have a chapel? So it was the gym and I don't know if they're going to fix that or what... But everyone was very close together and the podium was right in front of us and the only word I could think of was intimate. You so much as giggled and it sounded like a cackle. But the amazing part was all the sudden it was time for the sacrament to be passed and even though every sound was 10x it's amplitude the "chapel" was still dead silent. It was amazing! I'm so used to family wards where there's that little stretch of serenity and then it's almost as if all the babies in the ward made a pact to cry at the exact same moment. I'm not bitter towards that I'm just saying I'm used to it. So to sit there and here my own thoughts, no distractions, was amazing. I don't know how long it's been since I've sat there and truly pondered the atonement, discussed personally with the lord what I can improve on, and felt such a peace during sacrament. It made me so grateful for the single adult program. That we have this opportunity as young adults living the gospel to meet together and grow from one another. I think it's amazing! That we have the ability to run a functional and strong relief society. That we can learn from each other even though we are in our youth. I know the Lord finds great joy in that. To know that in our own strength we can accomplish amazing things so early on. So I continued on through the meetings and great lessons on D&C 136 and true friendship were given in sunday school and relief society.

I went home though and I was faced with a large dilemma. See I'm quite behind on all my classes because I took so long to buy my textbooks so I had ALOT of reading to do (actually, I still have alot of reading. Shame on me.). So I couldn't decide if I should go with my roommates, Jordan and Ashley, to Millswood Stake Centre to watch the Young Adults broadcast or stay home and study. I knew that if i went I would probably end up going out with them to some party Jordan had mentioned and get home really late and not getting any studying whatsoever done. Also, I'd most likely be exhausted and almost sleep through my psychology class, again. And I was really torn because it was one of those better best decisions you know? Either would be good. I could grow spiritually, socially, or educationally. So I got to my knees and I prayed and I sat there until I could decide what to do. I know, it doesn't seem like a big deal but I've been trying to pray to Lord more diligently and I thought this would be good practice. So as I debated with the Lord on which would be most beneficial I was surprised when I realized I needed to stay home and study. How odd, wouldn't he want me to go to the broadcast? So I got my book and was going into my room when Janna from 9 floors up came in to drop a back off of Sarah's. She wasn't going to the broadcast either! I asked her: "Hey Jan, why aren't ya goin?" and she informed me she was going to watch it on the internet and then study right after instead of having to make the long drive or going out. GLORIOUS! I was thrilled because i was feeling a tad bit guilty for not going and also completely confused.

So I got to watch it. And it was lovely! Sister Dalton is truly an inspired and edifying woman. Someone everyone should look up to. At the end though, I had a really hard time staying awake and I feel a little bad. But it was definitely longer than I expected! haha. But afterwards I noticed those "mormon messages" that are always at the church website's homepage. I clicked on it and probably within twenty seconds of the video I was bawling. It was so amazing! It was all about this man finding hope after 9/11 and I was just in awe. So I clicked on another one and after about a half hour I realized I'd watch about 10 of them. The spirit I felt I couldn't handle. It was as if each one while they were making them they thought, "oh you know, I think Kelsey Scott would really like this." Eventually I had to actually turn off my computer and think and at that moment such a pure love came over me. I am a daughter of God and this church is true. The things I learn each day are spiritual principles that will bless me throughout eternity and without the knowledge I have I would be nothing. It's been a long time since I've had such a sure answer come to me before. Recently I've sat in prayer in frustration because all I wanted was that confirmation of my faith; of that truth. But now I know it was because I had followed the Lord's advice. I was completely in an apartment by myself with zero distractions from a roommate or a phone or Facebook. I was in a state where I was susceptible to the spirit and it was so worth it. And so here I am and I thought I would finally start the blog since i'm in such an inspired state. I hope you enjoyed? Maybe I'll keep this up.